you guys want more? i've gotten three messages from people wanting more. i didn't realize it was that interesting...i mean, it was what it was...

with all the intensity of the playa we had two very stroll around and watch shit burn while rolling tender nights and two blazing hot get drunk at the Deep End and perform oral in public kind of days...

fuck! i'm cracking myself up...yes, i did...but actually i was the one receiving...it was hot.

i don't know...he was really kind. always checking to make sure i was comfortable. according to chinese astrology he's my best mate, but things just didn't go on after the playa. there were other pressures and, honestly, i don't think he was ready for my intensity, he kind of backed off after saying he wanted ON!...so it was a bit confusing, but nothing new.

and again, the time we were together i felt so incredibly beautiful...such a tender man. one of his friends came up to me sunday night and said, "you are so lucky" and i knew she was right. and he got a little protective and said "i'm lucky too!"

it was sweet.

i saw him for about an hour in septemer... we were all over each other. so nervous to see if that energy would thrive off-playa--then seeing him all vulnerable in his street clothes with his messenger bag...mr. fucking san francisco for sure...i wanted to jump him right there. such a cutie. and our energy was intense...really exciting. he promised me next time we'd get laid and that's the last i saw of him.

a couple emails and i ALWAYS write too much, so i think i was a bit much for him.

but it's good, see, because i want a man to walk on stilts and safety me while i spin fire, i want a man i can paint on, one i can dress up in sparkly panties and parade around while he juggles knives and sings songs he made up just for me, i want a man who will drive 6 hours to kiss me goodnight...i want a man who'll record my orgasm and play it in his set...

and i'm fucking worth it.

i'm with an aquarius now who adores me and loves my intensity...the night i met him i peeled grapes for him and burned my hair for him and told him everything he'd need to know in order to love me, and he was even more interested. i've never been with one before but he had our charts read and it looks like a swell ride...so far, it's gorgeous bliss...

Thanks Whoopdy

Just booked the flights this morning, so we'll be able to hang out for two weeks before I leave... pray for healing as well as happiness, if you're inclined...

:) Steve

and thanks Hi for the graphic descriptions of your BM and current blokes... sounds like you do enjoy the high intensity situations!

good for you - I wonder if that's a Cancer trait as well.. I really identified with the over the top way you described what you wanted a man to do for you ... I want a woman to adore and worship me - and I'll adore and worship her in return. For me, if someone finds that concept too full on, then she's selected herself out of contention as a potential partner..

what do other people think (or should I say FEEL!?)

[note: all hot vegetarian green thumbed Cancer women can feel free to message me directly!!!!!!]